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(no subject) i mean, floating vagina in a hot tub, how great is that. Happy excited vagina, full of joy and…
 
7 hrs ago / @dustball +
"I don't travel to SF unless I get laid or I get paid" I wish all investor meetings involved…
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yesterday / @dustball +
I'm not even old

but wth?

 

In late June I fell (tripped over some puppies) in the street going to get the mail. I was in the street with both of my feet busted up so bad (due to some kind of shoes...plastic sandals… ugh) I couldn’t hardly put weight on them, but since I was too far from the house, in the street, atop a hill and inside a curve, I knew I had to get up at least to the driveway.

 

A week or so ago I did something to my right … hip. What am I, 80? I was picking something up and it (my hip) went wonky. So, it hurt for like 10 minutes and then was okay until I did something similar a couple of days later. And now whenever I pick something up or move to the right or right now, it hurts. 

 

Just the fact that it is my hip is making me grumpy, besides the pain. The pain is bad too. :(

 

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yesterday / @palaceofperseph +
Good Shit Good Things in 2016 (inspired by Deeterz) After going through an ugly, painful break…
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3 days ago / @mystupidmouth +
(no subject) I am going to smoke and drink like I'm 21 again this weekend.
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3 days ago / @americancer +
Good Shit to Cheer Myself The Fuck Up Part 1 Cute Puppies! Big Puppies! …
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3 days ago / @deeterz +
2016 2016 has been a really rough year. I think it’s been a rough year for everyone, and one…
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3 days ago / @deeterz +
More Thoughts on Stuff...

And what are my thoughts on stuff? Being that I have a routine that I try my best to stick to, I find that I have few new experiences to tell the world…

 

Since my last post…

 

I have worked and worked for that is what I do – generally in the 50 to 60 hour per week range. The work of a supervisor in the Workplace of Despair is a never-ending battle against the forces of evil, at least in my position as the middleman betwixt engineering and the shop: engineering – the land where we can do no wrong and the shop – the land where doing more with less is not a slogan, it is a way of life with less people, less machines, less tooling though it is the only part of the company that runs 24 hours per day 7 days a week even most holidays. For the curious, I did work Thanksgiving morning for there was much to be thankful for, Veterans Day (Remembrance Day for those of you who happen to not be from ‘round these parts) for I am a veteran of these many wars in the trenches, Labour Day for it was a celebration of labour, and I could ramble on back into the past though I think by now you get the point. And, and that’s a big AND, I will work Christmas and New Year’s Eve plus New Year’s Day though I shall not work Christmas Day. I just won’t do it…

 

As nice as my wee li’l tablet/laptop combination thingie is, I am a bit rough upon such with excessive amounts of time I spend upon such in various locations across this great land. The screen though it had tablet functionability at one point in time, no longer functions as such though it does have a purdy HD screen. The home button on this here keyboard is no longer attached to the keyboard and refuses to become reattached. The battery is becoming a bit quirky in regards to when it decides that is no longer going to hold a charge. At this point in time whence it reaches 20% full, it will drop to 0 within approximately 1 minute. So the first major purchase that is not a necessity for my survival I shall make as a solitary abode resident will be to replace this here contraption with something of similar functionality…

 

I have far too much stuff and the move is not even close to being completed. I have been sorting in my two months of this Grand Experiment, dumpsterizing some, donating some, giving away some, and keeping that which I have chosen to keep for whatever reason. And I still have too much stuff. At some point I will need to rent an abode for the stuff that I wish to keep though no longer have the room for at this time…

 

I have a television and yet I have no television. My humble abode contains the physical manifestations of a television and yet its dreams do not flash before my eyes. Two months in and I find that I do not miss these visual intrusions into my life. It is quite possible that the major and minor networks that consumed my brain cells for most of my life have lost one of their disciples. I have a feeling that this object of my former affection will either be given away or will end up as a larger display for my laptop or my desktop if I choose to retrieve it from its current location…

 

For the most part I still need to retrieve about a half tonne of books, my tools, and my mountain bike. The books are by far the easiest of my problems to deal with. Being I am a geek in many regards other than vocation, I know many avid readers and these will find a good home. The tools I have accumulated over the years will be much harder to deal with for many of which I wish to keep on the offhand chance that I choose to purchase a homestead again so most will end up residing with the overflow stuff I possess. As for the mountain bike, well, I just do not know what its fate will be. Would I like to keep it? Indeed I would for it was a bit pricey and was exactly what I wanted. If I keep it, where will I store it whence not in use? Leave it to weather in the great out of doors? Won’t happen. Find a home for it in my bedroom/dining room/living room/study/kitchen? If you have not been paying close attention, I have too much stuff and there is no room in my everything multipurpose room. Do I store it with all the other too much stuff for which I do not have the space? That I cannot answer at this time…

 

Once the van I currently drive is finally in my name, which is a process that is taking far longer than it should for it is quite possible that someone is being a bit spiteful when it comes to what I am expecting in return for my eviction, I will be purchasing a vehicle that more closely represents me as a human, and not a minivan type vehicle that I have been driving far too many years through various incarnations and styles and colour combinations. The last vehicle that I was able to choose went to the great beyond during the winter of ’93. I know it seems rather minor, but it does bother me that all the vehicles I have driven in that last 23 years were all picked by her and what she could drive in regards to size, power, and styling…

 

And it was always what she wanted and not a team effort as it should have been. And maybe in ways some of it is my fault for not voicing my opinion more strongly or putting my foot down in certain situations. And maybe in the back of my mind I felt that giving her what she wanted would keep her happy, which was not the case at all. ‘Tis why I am not at all upset about losing the house, which she picked and not at all what I was looking for…

 

At some point in the near future I will give the entire timeline of events that lead to the end. Yeppers, there is a timeline with very specific events on the road to that which once was. So specific in fact that I knew what was coming before it happened though I refused to believe my conclusions. And doubt in my own judgement is one of my greatest flaws and would have saved me much grief over the years. I am my own worst enemy in many regards…

 

And as the last drops of my second cup of Starbucks cool silently at the bottom of the cup, the ramblings of a man who is alone sitting amongst those that are all alone though not wishing to be alone shall come to an end for there are only so many words that can pour forth from my soul per any given cup of coffee…

 

 
yesterday / @weesaul +
(no subject) So this random guy was on my “people you may know” on FB and he lives in Lubbock and was cute,…
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4 days ago / @mystupidmouth +
Open Letter to Education Ventures, NY NY Dear University Ventures guys, I hope your team fails…
 
yesterday / @schencka +
Response to an essay https://www.ins… Katie, it's nice to see that you are responding to…
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5 days ago / @schencka +
What about What if we declared MindSay as silly hats only?
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4 days ago / @dustball +
dolphins rarely have spiders on their nose
 
2 days ago / @dustball +
No shave November I have no interest in doing this, as my facial hair is laughable… but for some…
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5 days ago / @cornholio23 +
Everything is perfect for a few days, but then...

he does something that makes me flip my shit.

 

Today...he used our white wedding towels to clean up piss left by my dog (who goes to the door when he needs to go out but doesn’t bark to let us know he’s at the door).

 

Our beautiful, white, lush, brand new, unused towels his parents bought us…

 

Used to wipe up dog piss.

 

What was he thinking?

 

He’s currently rinsing and washing them...but UGHHH!

 

I love him and all, but jesus christ, what was he thinking.
 

 

 
2 days ago / @k10 +
Graduation, At Last After staying in bed all morning yesterday, I got up and had a super productive…
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5 days ago / @mystupidmouth +
Happy Friday I blew off the museum earlier this week so I could help a co-worker out by picking up,her…
 
2 days ago / @divine +
(no subject) To see a spider in your dream indicates that you are feeling like an outsider in some situation. Or…
 
2 days ago / @almost23 +
Better day Today is the best day I’ve had in a while! It started off great, when I woke up I…
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5 days ago / @deeterz +
(no subject) Just keep coming at me. All the shitty things. Keep on.
 
3 days ago / @almost23 +
(no subject) i keep getting mad at myself when i realize that i’m forever growing and changing and learning about…
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6 days ago / @noseatbelts +
Weighing

There’s a few things I think I’ve learned about myself in the last year since I graduated (but did not get a new job that is in-line with actually having a bachelor’s degree).

 

  1. I don’t want to be responsible for other people in my job. I’m decent at managing people, at least in the capacity I’ve found myself in, but in the end, I don’t really like it. I’m a good worker by myself. I push myself to find my weaknesses and look for ways to improve, so I theoretically am always getting better and improving, from an internal source of motivation to better myself at whatever it is I’m responsible for. So, that makes me good. That’s what got me promoted. Not my managerial skills. Nonetheless, I’ve had to learn managerial skills, and I just don’t like being responsible for people who don’t have the same drive to be better that I do. I work well on a team with people with similar drive. I can’t stand laziness, I’m not great at motivating people, and I CERTAINTLY don’t want to spend the rest of my life managing them for the long-term. If I’m somehow put on a project where I’m the leader for that project – fine. Whatever. That’s actually harder, though, because I was in that position in college a few times and I sometimes felt like people resent you…. But anyway… you get the idea. That’s my first point: I don’t want to be a ‘manager’.
  2. I want options. I want to have options regarding WHERE I live, first and foremost. One of the key reasons I chose to not pursue academia is because you often have to move, sometimes across the entire country, to a place you don’t necessarily want to be at, just to have a job in your field in your profession. I don’t like that. I’ve moved a lot in my life, and it’s always an adventure, you always learn a lot when you move across state lines, or even county lines sometimes… but I’ve also lived in places that I wasn’t crazy about. And I don’t want to be stuck there, or stuck moving all around trying to find a good fit or whatever. Happiness in many things like where you live is what you make it, yes, but I also think in a free country if you have the choice to live somewhere specifically why spend your precious life somewhere else?? Unfortunately, it seems like most of the careers I’ve been attracted to so far would require this sort of hoping to get settled in a place I enjoy… Academia, librarianship, museums, etc. These jobs are extremely competitive to get good positions in and often require relocating, sometimes very far, and uprooting your whole life.
  3. I want stability. I’m -generally- not of the ilk that suggests you should necessarily do what you love. I had this realization after my first year of college, after I read something on some website. “Do what you love and you’ll never work a day in your life” is bullshit. I also believe that work is good. Humans are meant to work, like every other animal. Work, as in, “activity involving mental or physical effort done in order to achieve a purpose or result.” We’re not made to sit and not do anything all day. And I don’t want to be made to work purely with someone benefiting off of my sweat, but in the end if you’re being paid you’re benefiting as well so… Does that work need to be soul-satisfying? No. It should however be somewhat interesting and challenging in order to prevent total misery. Forget harsh working conditions – lack of intellectual stimulation and challenge is what would kill me!
  4. I’m not sure I’m the kind of person who is ever going to find a job that satisfies me deeply. At the same time, I'm a pretty content person. I’m very… mild-mannered. My emotions, generally, are pretty stable outwardly as long as I’m in a decent environment. I think happiness is meant to be primarily pursued in personal affairs. In the sense of community you create around you with friends and family and how you contribute to your community. If your job happens to have some element of contributing to your community, then great. But this is one reason I’m against the idea of having to move for work. Because community and people are extremely important to overall life happiness. And if you’re living in a city filled with shitty people (like I was living in Las Vegas) and are hundreds or thousands of miles away from family and friends that you truly love, then what is there? Your super satisfying career? That might be great for people who don’t have a very good family environment or community feeling about them, but… I don’t think that’s right for me. I’m willing and ABLE to pour myself into something 100% to get a great outcome, but I truly need to believe in it. I do great at my current job… but I could do even better if I believed in what I do more. I’m only touching the tip of my iceberg of potential, and my bosses already think great. But I’m not interested in a long-term future where I’m at, so I just… do what I need to do to not get bitched at by anyone and to get recognized for doing well, and call it a day.
    1. Anyway… I got away from myself there. Point is, it’s great if you can ‘do what you love’ and I guess if there’s a feasible way to do that and you can still support yourself and live the life you want, that’s amazing. Kudos. But, I come from a long history of struggle to survive. I’m looking, first and foremost, to never again have to face homelessness. Never again have to face hunger, or to have my children face that. I’m not looking to get rich. I just want to know I can have money for an emergency, pay all my bills (which won’t be many… I’m not into TV and shit), engage in my hobbies which include mostly outdoor recreation, support a small family some day and then retire. Those are the important things to me. Monetary stability. We all hit rough times, I know. Illness. That’s a big one. That’s why I want to make enough money to eat a healthy fucking diet (SAD!!!) and also have decent health care coverage. And so when that blow does come… cuz I feel like these days, it always does… we’re able to take it better.

 

So with these things in mind, I’m trying to figure out what I want to do for graduate school.

I’m kind of seriously considering accounting right now.

That, or public health. I feel like public health might open a lot of doors, but would give me the option of going back into anthropological type work if I wanted to. Accounting is very… narrow. However, from the research I’ve done, I like the different options of fields in accounting or types of companies you can work with, or even public. I like that there’s good job prospects, pay that’s adequate for the work you put in (generally), mostly. And, looking at the personality traits of people who enjoy accounting, I match well. Is it my dream job? No. My dream job was being a fucking astrophysicist, but that’s NEVER going to happen. I’m just never going to be able to do that kind of math. Maybe MAYBE I could have if I’d really REALLY applied myself and not told myself since 5th grade that I’m bad at math… but I think that ship has sailed now. Anthropology was my second love. Who knows, even as an accountant, I could work for a community-based non-profit or something and still use some of my anthropology thinking skills sometimes. I dunno. I just know that with anthropology, as much as I love it, I can’t see a clear-cut future right now. And I need to do SOMETHING with my life.

 

Also, things with Jeff are on the rocks right now. I’m not going to get into details, but something’s going to need to happen. He mentioned something about marriage the other day, and it wasn’t good. With me ready for graduate school… well, school is a great place to meet a partner. And if things aren’t going to work with me and Jeff, I need to know sooner rather than later so we can cut each other loose and I can go into my graduate studies ready to focus on school and maybe bump into someone who will be better suited for me in the long-term.

 

 

 

 

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6 days ago / @divine +
(no subject) silly me almost caught a feeling.
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4 days ago / @cas +
(no subject) Hi all, I’m doing okay post-break up, but I feel like I’m lying to myself. I fell…
 
4 days ago / @americancer +
(no subject) Our relationship lasted three years, three months and one day…
 
5 days ago / @americancer +
(no subject) almost all of my shopping is done. I’m struggling with something, though. One…
 
5 days ago / @almost23 +
A thought for the day...

When are people going to come to their senses

and realize that “Gun Free Zones” are NOT

SAFE ZONES?!

 

Over the past few years, they have been proven

to be the most UN-SAFE places to be!

 

Just because you’re in a Gun Free Zone doesn’t

mean you’re safe from gun violence – or any

other violence. I guess that was proven at Ohio

State… A Gun Free Zone.

 

I’m a firm believer in gun control… If there’s a

gun in the area, I want to be in control of it!!

 

On my medical records you’d find Lipitor listed as one

of my allergies, even though I’ve NEVER swallowed a

single pill…  My cousin and I are twins from different

mothers. He and I share what could be described as

parallel lives; what happens to one, usually happens to

the other. He had a near fatal anaphylactic reaction to

Lipitor! I, in my infinite wisdom, took heed of that incident,

as we even share common allergies. I flushed an entire 

90 day supply of Lipitor down the toilet, just as I did with

a bottle of Prozac after taking only one pill.

 

What, you may ask does this have to do with firearms

and gun control?

 

Early in life I learned it’s better to be safe than sorry and

to be prepared (No I never was a Boy Scout, But I was an

Explorer).

 

I see, having a firearm and not having to use it, superior to

needing a firearm and not having one!

 

How many of the resent mass shootings could have been

aborted had there been just one legally concealed/armed

citizen present?

 

ALL OF THEM!!

 

Yes, there may have been “collateral damage” but the body

count would have been no where near what it was.

 

No, I don’t have a CC permit, but then, I try to avoid those 

Gun Free Zones if at all possible, and when I travel out of

town I have “my little friend" with me... A 1911, .45 ACP !

 

Oh, and BTW, I ALWAYS have a knife on my person,

even in places where “weapons” are prohibited!!

 

 

 

 
5 days ago / @rv1501 +
Bruh Marriage is not for the faint of heart. I used to have my own house by myself and supported…
 
5 days ago / @k10 +
 
(no subject) So, a town one hour away from us is projected to be getting 14 inches of snow tonight. We are projected…
 
6 days ago / @chel2thec +
(no subject) Tonight’s To-Do list: Make sugar cookie dough Sienna BBALL Send in payment for…
 
6 days ago / @almost23 +
(no subject) I know some people don’t enjoy Christmas music except for very much close to Christmas. But it just…
 
6 days ago / @almost23 +
 



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